Monday, February 9, 2009
missing my husband
I am missing my husband. He is in Germany working...it's a good job, and I'm lucky that he has a job. Most of my students don't. I feel so bad for them..losing their jobs. I don't know what I would do if Ralph lost his job. Went to pick up Andee's medicine today; it went up another 100.00..wow. I wasn't expecting that increase..I bought shoes and now I feel guilty because I had to charge the medicine because I spent money on shoes. I feel irresponsible. Guilt seems to be a part of my being lately:
Guilty for not being there for all of my students.
Guilty for not moving and being with my husband.
Guilty for not cleaning my house.
Guilty for not running as much.
Guilty for not being there for my friends.....
Guilty seems to be my middle name as of late. I need to get back on track and know I can't be all things to all people. That's God's job, not mine. So why do I think I can do it?