Back into running....yea, not in shape, but getting there. I have several knitting projects on the kneedles, wonder if I will ever get one done?

Haven't ran in a long time. I'm going to get back to it. I miss it so much. My husband is still in Iraq. Maybe someday we will have normal lives

Knitting

I love Knitting...not good at it. Doesn't come naturally.
Finished my baby blanket for my new grandchild.
Ran a few miles the other day, but it's raining today. Glad it's spring break. I need a break from lesson planning. Graduation is May 14th. I have a lot of graduates this year...I so love my job. I get down about it now and then, but I got cards from my class. Each student present their card one by one to me yesterday. How many teachers get to exerience that? My online students came in to test..a lot of happy people. That made me feel good, but it was their hard work, not mine. I just supply the shot in the arm..the do the work. I wouldn't trade teaching adults for the world.
I am the lucky one.
Today is a good day.
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my grandbaby...and my responsibilty..love my children

I miss my mom. I want to go on vacation the last week of March. I haven't ran in awhile and gaind half of my weight back. It's all of my fault. I need to do somethign about it, instead of complaining about it. I'm still knitting; I'm knitting a baby blanket for my daughter.
Ralph is in Kuwait..then off to Iraq this week.
Ralph lost his stepfather..he didn't like me much. I'm a strong personality, so it's difficult for people to like me. I understand that. I didn't go to his funeral..I truly debated about that. BUT, I thought, instead of making people uncomfortable, I would stay back. I will send a sympathy card though. Ralph loved that man..I struggled with his ideologies and he surely didn't like mine.
Really worked hard this past week...too many students, and too little of time. I've had a part time postition posted for a long time and no one is interested. Not surprising..it's a lot of work, and people who know this line of work, know it.
I'm tired, miss my husband, tired of having everything on my shoulders, work, home, children, etc...I guess I should stop complaining..others have it tougher. I know that, but here, I can write about it. Too many people want/need me to be strong, here I can post my thoughts and ideas without anyone knowing me.
I need to get back to running...I miss it sooo much. How do I fit it back into my schedule?
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New life?

Wow, what a year..already.
Ralph is in Texas, then going to Iraq this week. It will be a good thing. With him in Germany, there was no end in sight. He has to work for Andee's medical insurance, and of course, money. There are no jobs left in the area. Bryanna's pregnant, Andee struggling with her apartment, what more can we do? This way, we could help our children and grandchildren. I wonder if others have to go through this..I doubt it. My dad used to tell me to not follow in their footsteps, and I think I have. Not purposely, but it seems that is what I have chosen.
Work has been tough, people losing their jobs, no money, and a new dean (I think he has borderline personality disorder)..he's a liar and can not be trusted. People wanting miracles from me..the company that I teach it's people think that English can be taught and they will learn it immediately. How short sighted is that? I have learned over the years that you can not change people's minds or hearts about diversity. It is why I don't go to church..Christians are judgemental. I'm embarassed to call myself a Christian because of this.
I'm tired of being alone. Sounds like I'm having a pity party..well I guess I am.
Well, with Ralph going to Iraq..our dream is to have a house in Oak Island. We are going to save for it. With the DOD, this is a possibility. The Dept. of Def...it will help to obtain our dream. Patti and Eric live there. They are our good friends..and accept both Ralph and I...both of us...warts and all. Not many people like them out there. They are struggling to find a nonjudgemental church too. I miss them so much. I want to see them next weekend. I hope I can.
Love me.

It's a blustery/windy day outside. My daughter is pregnant. I'm not mad about the prengancy, upset that she didn't heed my warning. Upset that it could jeapordize her health. She said for me to get off of her back, well, I guess I better just stick to myself. I don't want to get hurt about all of this. I'm already attached to the baby.When people say that it's about themselves, and no one else. That statement is far from true. Decisions affect everyone around them. Decisions not only affect yourself, but those who love you. When all is said and done, who is left? Your family. Wish my loved ones can see that.
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Haven't posted in a LONG time. I had to post something tonight..or morning. It's 1:00am. I went out with my daughter; she asked me to go to a bar. It was not fun. I think I brought my daughter down. I feel bad. I don't fit. The people were drunk, and I think I embarassed my daughter without realizing it. I guess I'm too old, too teacherish, and just plain stuck in my ways. Never thought my youth would just be sooo far behind. How silly of me...why didn't I realize how old I am?
Ralph is still in Germany, I worry about our marriage. He's been gone for over a year now. I wonder what our future will be like?
I still knit, but it takes me so long. It doesn't come naturally and I wish I was good at it. There are so many projects I would love to do, but know that I probably would screw those up too.
My friends have their families, so it seems I'm down on the friend list too. I'm just a sorry ole gal, aren't I.
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